26 is not too late!

Today was one of those no-idea days... It rained all day, and I was feeling super lazy, so I basically turned into a bed burrito. While scrolling through TikTok, I stumbled on a video of Oh Se Hun from EXO absolutely slaying the dance to Love Shot. Then it hit me—I used to be crazy in love with him! And after seeing that video... well, turns out, I still am. T^T He’s serving in the army now, so he doesn’t show up in public much these days. But the other day, he made it to the Weibo hot search because he attended someone’s wedding. He’s a bit chubby now, but let’s be honest—he’s still so handsome! And of course, I had to go stalk his Instagram and rewatch some of his reels. He posted the music video for On Me, his first solo track. That scene where he’s riding a white horse? My heart just couldn’t handle it.

Prince charming!

Lately, I’ve been stumbling across so many posts about studying abroad in Germany on my XHS feed. I guess it’s because I’ve been searching about it, and now the algorithm is flooding me with similar content. Honestly, it’s got me seriously thinking about taking the IELTS soon since most universities in Europe require at least a Band 7. I feel like I really need to find the courage to step out and actually do something I’ve always wanted. I always have these ideas, but I never follow through because I’m scared. Scared of failing, scared of messing up. I always end up thinking about the worst-case scenario before I even take the first step. I know I need to change that mindset, but it’s easier said than done. Maybe it’s time to just take the leap and see where it leads! 

Sometimes I get so anxious about the results before I even start. And honestly, I’ve realized that as an Asian, we often have this mindset that once you hit your late 20s, you’re already “old.” I mean, I’m 26 this year, and this way of thinking constantly makes me feel like I need to rush everything. Like, if I don’t do it now, I’ll be “too old” to do it later. But when I step back and think about it… I’m only 26! It’s not old at all. I need to remind myself that it’s okay to take my time and focus on my own pace. Life doesn’t have an expiration date, after all. So I'll just take it one step at a time. As long as I keep moving forward, I'll reach where I want to be.