Blank Mind, Big Dreams

So, my manager came over to talk about my resignation, and suddenly it hit me—he’s just a fellow human trying to survive this chaotic planet, one meeting at a time. Surprisingly, he gave me advice on further studies and even said that if I ever felt like coming back to the company, I’d always be welcome. Look at him, getting all soft and sentimental.

He did ask me if he’d been giving me too much stress, and I was like, “Well… there may be some issues with your anger management,” in the most polite way possible. But honestly, our conversation ended on a really peaceful note. No drama, no grudges. I'm not here to sabotage anyone’s career—he’s human too, just doing his best (even if that includes a side of occasional yelling).

Anyway, I blitzed through 25 IELTS Band 9 writing samples like I was downloading wisdom straight into my brain. Spoiler alert: I now feel like I can write like a top scorer… until I see an actual exam question and my brain decides to go on vacation. Instantly blank. Just vibes.

So now, I’m grounding myself in what really matters and saying a sincere prayer for the exam:

Dear Heavenly Father,

As I prepare for my upcoming IELTS exam, I humbly ask for Your guidance and wisdom. Please help me to remember and apply everything I’ve studied. Grant me clarity of thought, the ability to organize my ideas well, and the words to express myself clearly in both writing and speech. Calm my nerves and fill me with peace and confidence, especially during moments when doubt creeps in. Help me stay focused, ignore distractions, and trust in the effort I’ve put in. Thank You for always being with me, no matter how big or small the challenge.

In Jesus’ precious name, I pray. Amen.

As for the speaking test, let’s hope I don’t turn into a human version of a loading screen. My grammar might be a bit of a rollercoaster, but I’ll keep talking like it’s my job—and I’ll try to keep the “ah, eh, oh” to a minimum.

Please send some prayers and good vibes my way.

Nights 🌙