Friyay!
Okay, so today I wasn’t exactly working… more like professionally wandering around the office trying to find people to chit-chat with. You know, just being a social butterfly in denial.
It’s funny how people suddenly start appreciating you a lot more when they know you’re leaving. Like—hello?? Where was this energy when I was crying over deadlines and Excel sheets?? People who barely threw a “hi” my way are now talking to me so much, I’m starting to question reality. Is this the Twilight Zone or just resignation perks?
Anyway, I was strutting out of the toilet (yes, with main character energy), heading back to my desk, when suddenly I heard someone yell,
“Carmen!!”
I turned around, dramatically of course, and it was BH.
He goes, “I heard you’re leaving... why??”
And I’m like, “HUH? Even you know??”
He says, “Yeah, it was announced at our site huddle meeting.”
Excuse me, WHAT THE HUDDLE?!
For context: the site huddle is this weekly gathering where reps from every department AND top management join forces like some kind of corporate Avengers. So yeah—basically everyone and their cousin knows I’m leaving now.
But here's the thing—I’m not really into the whole "let's broadcast Carmen's life plans" vibe. So, as the strategic genius that I am, I’ve been handing out different versions of my plan to everyone I talk to. That way, no one actually knows what’s real.
It’s like Mission: Impossible, but the mission is hiding my itinerary.
Only one person—YJ—knows the actual truth. Shoutout to YJ for being my confidential agent.
For example, I skip the Tioman part. People know I’m going to New Zealand, but I casually skip the “working holiday” part and just say I’m going there to study.
Because guess what? I’ve reached the age where I realize lowkey is the best key.
I get anxious when too many eyes are on me—like literally, even posting on Instagram gives me the jitters. We live in a society where comparison is basically a competitive sport.
I look at others, then look at myself... and suddenly I’m a potato on a couch with Wi-Fi and no achievements.
So yeah, sometimes I deactivate social media just to breathe and come back when I’m mentally strong enough to see someone’s engagement, promotion, and gym progress all in one scroll.
Anyway, that’s all for today’s emotional rollercoaster. Tomorrow I’ll be visiting my grandaunt, then meeting up with my friend XT and her fam, and drumroll — we’ll be heading back to JB BY CAR!
Yes, your girl is finally experiencing the border-crossing-by-car life. Historic moment. Slightly excited. Also craving milk tea like a koala craves eucalyptus. So tomorrow, milk tea is non-negotiable.
There will probably be no updates until I’m back in Singapore on Monday night. Also, fair warning: there’s a 99.99% chance we’ll have to walk across the bridge because SURPRISE, long weekend = human tsunami at the border.
Catch y’all on the flip side.
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