Lazy Days and Life Lessons

Guys, it’s down to just 3 days before I go home! I seriously can’t wait to leave this place and head back to my hometown. These past few days, I’ve realized I need a lot of freedom—I just can’t survive in a system with all these unspoken, underground rules I’m supposed to follow. Like, I was born to be free and roam wherever I want! That’s just how I am—I can’t stay in one place for too long. Oh, and don’t get me started on how much alone time I need. Honestly, I could win the gold medal in Introvert Olympics.

Recently, I’ve also been feeling completely drained from using my brain so much for work. Why is it that the jobs where you have to use your brain all day pay more than the ones where you work with your body? Like, hello? Construction workers are out there risking their lives every day, while we’re just sitting in air-conditioned offices pushing buttons on keyboards. Shouldn’t they be earning more than us? It’s wild.

Oh, and one more thing—I’ve realized that if you want to climb higher in your career, you basically have to do whatever your boss wants. Like, really? That’s tough for me because I don’t like doing things that go against my own rules or values. Honestly, I’d rather stay at ground level than fake my way to the top.

I really want to work on my own without having a bossy manager hovering above me. Managers like that don’t truly value us—they just treat us like tools to climb higher in their own careers. Honestly, it’s such a stark contrast to my previous company. My ex-manager, who was also my supervisor, was an incredible leader and an amazing person. His leadership felt so natural—you’d just want to follow his guidance because you knew he was steering you in the right direction.

Even though I resigned almost six months ago, he still checks in on me! He’ll send a personal message every now and then to ask how I’m doing in life. He’s like a father figure to me, and I respect him so much for that.

Now, let’s talk about my current manager… He’s the complete opposite. Honestly, he’s such a jackass (sorry for the language, but that just shows how much I can’t stand him). I don’t usually curse, so you can imagine the level of frustration I feel. Like I mentioned in a previous post, I’m just going to stay patient for a few more months, soak up whatever experience I can, and then resign.

It feels a bit unfair to my current supervisor (who reports to this lousy manager too). He’s also a great person, and I wish things were different for him. But at this point, I need to prioritize myself. I’ve had enough of this manager, and it’s time to move on.

Okay, let’s not talk about him anymore—he’s not worth me getting frustrated over, even in my free time. Today, I didn’t get to go out, but honestly, that’s totally fine because I had the perfect lazy day. I pretty much slept the whole time—woke up, checked my phone until my food arrived, ate, and then went back to sleep. Such a “productive” day, right?

Oh, and I managed to finish this movie called It Ends With Us. It’s about how domestic violence affects a family. Even though it’s a bit short, the ending felt really healing to me. If you have some free time, I think it’s worth giving it a try.

It Ends With Us